Do you feel as though you are in a “wilderness” of waiting right now? Are you struggling through a financial crisis, health issue, or maybe the death of a loved one? Maybe you are struggling through something else entirely and are wondering if it will ever end and if God even cares. It is in this that I want to give you hope. God is in the waiting times. I have spent a good deal of my life there. I struggled and I fought and, finally, I rested in the waiting.
Be still and know that I am God
Struggling to be still characterizes my whole life. Action is part of me. I always want to move. I usually feel bad for the people who sit behind or beside me in an audience because every three min or so I’m changing positions–I can’t sit still. Soon after I first met the man who would become my husband, he had me sit on the floor and just listen to this song that was 18 min long. Just listen and do nothing else. This was torture.
I am a doer–when there are problems I take action. I am constantly running thru the possible resolutions to any given problem that I am having. I find solutions and I act on them. Sitting idly by and waiting for an answer is not in my nature. And being patient in the waiting? HA! Oh no! That is not who I am. I am a natural leader; a project manger if you will. Because of that, submitting to God and to my husband, who is patient beyond all reason, has been a challenge to learn. But learn it I did, and I still am! It took financial difficulties, housing inadequacies, several children, and many other unpleasant circumstances for me to finally realize the ability to rest myself in God’s will and perfect timing.
God has shown me that He wants me to “Be still and know that I am God” (Psalm 46:10). To wait for Him and to trust in Him to provide. During the next 31 days of this series I want to share with you what I learned through it all. It is my earnest hope and prayer that you will be blessed by it.